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The Morning After

There are a lot of morning after's in my life. The morning after Alexander finished filming, the morning after my son was born, the morning after Jared and I spent our first night together, the morning after we got married. The morning after he told me the truth.

The morning after we finished filming Miami Vice, the morning after I found out she'd released that fucking tape. My life is a collection of fucking morning after's. Yet only one hurts, only one of them leaves me feeling hollowed out and stripped and I don't think he even gets why it does, only that it does.

We men are strange creatures, feeling and hiding and lying like we're fucking breathing, unceasingly. There's going to be more morning after's, another collection of them and everything important will be followed by another morning after because the morning doesn't wait for anyone or anything.

In a world where nothing is concrete, the morning always comes.

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If you could change one aspect of your society, what would it be?

That's easy...

I'd change the frequency with which I get hit by the female members of my family. It's bad enough when mam does it and even worse when she uses the frying pan, but when my sisters and aunts get involved, I take the less abusive easy way out and run for it.

As fast as I fucking can.

Mam hit me today when she found out that I hadn't talked to Jared in a while, then Claudy started in, then Catherine, and when Eamon came in with our aunt and they saw what was happening, I wasn't staying the fuck around to see if they'd join in and help.

Fucking vicious red headed Irish tempers. If you've never been on the receiving end of one, the moment they get that look in their eye or reach for the pan, just run. Nobody that's ever faced that would ever call you a fucking coward.

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Muse: Colin Farrell

Tunnel

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Tell the truth about something you usually lie about.
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Have you ever rebelled? If you have, how did you do it?

I think the question is, when haven't I? when I was a child, up until I got into the Gaiety School. I didn't get into as much trouble then, mainly because I was busy with one play or another. After that... I didn't go the Hollywood route which was what everyone expected me to do. I stayed out drinking, partying, doing all the things an Irish boy does.

Call me a rebel against expectations.

Later I did it again when I married Jared, even my mom was shocked when she heard I was going monogamous.

And then... Then came Miami Vice and the stalker and the being sick and rehab. I need to be around for James, need to give up some of the things that distracted me from being a father to him.

Is the rebel dead? Is it ever dead?

It is, at least until he turns 18.

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Revenge.

I played this character once who waited years to get his hands on this copper for something that he'd done. Fuck all if I can remember now what it was, but I do remember that.

In my younger years, I was definitely all for revenge. For any slight. Brush against me as I'm comin' out of a store? I'm going to beat your ass! Look at my girl sideways? I'm gonna kick your ass! And I'd wait days for the right time to deliver it and I would deliver it, sometimes months later.

The thing about revenge is you have to keep it close to your heart. You have to keep all that anger boiling just under the surface and the truth of it is, that takes a lot of fuckin' work. It takes a lot of fuckin' energy just to do that and that energy is best spent on somethin' else.

Like fuckin' the bastards girl when he's not lookin'.

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What are your thoughts about monogamy?

Monogamy is for fools, Colin wrote. He'd done it once, threw all his energy into remaining faithful and then... It's hardly his fault that he can't think about monogamy without thinking about Jared.

Oh there were plenty before him that Colin promised monogamy too, but the words were lies trussed up as the truth. In the end, he was always in someone else's bed, the only question was if they were too.

But with Jared... He'd meant it and that had disappeared in a flash. Destroyed and trounced on as if the sacrifice he'd made had meant nothing. Perhaps it did. Perhaps it meant less than nothing. Only time would tell and maybe... maybe he could take Jared back and mean it again, but these days, Colin wasn't so sure.

Monogamy is for fools and liars, for people who want to believe in something that's as much of a fairytale as Cinderella is. The liars tell it and the fools believe it.

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Spirit.

The word conjures up images of Alexander in Colin's mind. The spirit of the man, his ability to live on even until today. There are others, but it's Alexander in his mind. Maybe because that's the movie he really worked on with Jared and that man can't seem to get out of his mind, no matter how hard Colin tries.

And he's been trying pretty damn hard.

Would Alexander's great spirit have been able to deal with this? Colin wondered, but then he remembered that both Alex and Hephaestion had been married, Hephaestion even marrying one of Alex's wives' sisters. But that was then, the rules were different and Alexander had to marry for the sake of his country.

Colin? Colin had to fuck for the sake of his. But he'd given that up for Jared and...

He shook himself. Perhaps one day he'd be able to stop tying everything to Jared.

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